But he's on the mend now so I'm back.
So anyway, I'm back.
And I'm spending my time with him, getting to know him, enjoying his company, falling for him. And I know there are lectures in store for me from some people. And some others who are going to be less-than-happy that my pussy is off the market once again.
For one thing, he'll fuck me. And that's something I clearly need. Romance is a wonderful thing, but at the end of the night, let's face it - I want to get laid. Often. Orgasms are a huge part of why I'm in SL at all, and without those, there just isn't a good reason to spend my time there.
The second thing that sets T apart is who he is. Or what he is. Or a part of him, anyway. I've made no secret of the fact that I have a very submissive side. And that side of me hasn't had any attention in a very long time. Even when I was with my sweet Hugh, it just wasn't his thing and I wasn't going to try to make him be someone he's not.
As a matter of fact, he hasn't even broached the subject of it all with me... I'm always the one who brings it up because I'm craving his domination so much. He hasn't demanded to be my owner (I give that willingly), he hasn't demanded anything of me. What I give, I give because I want to. Domination is certainly part of who he is, but it isn't all that he is.
It's natural to him... not forced, like so many of the fake doms in SL. And he's also not a closet misogynist, like so many of the fake doms in SL. He loves women, respects them. He respects me. He's proud of the woman I am and doesn't see any need to try to change me, like some have.
At this point in my life, this is what I want. It is a huge part of what I've needed for a long time. Something I've wanted to explore, but haven't had the right man to explore it with.
I'm cautiously optimistic right now. We all know I've been stung before (see my last blog post) and I'm very well aware that I'm taking a risk again in giving my heart to someone. I'm okay with that. Without risk, there is no reward.
I want to take all the risks. And I want to take them with him.
But right now... right now, I just need him.